today

every now and then a day presents itself with so many emotions that it gives me a headache. Today would be a good example of this.

The headache is a painful thing, but all of the emotions are good to feel; even the bad ones. In order to appreciate the good, I need to feel the not-so-good. I get that and am happy I get it. Otherwise, I wouldn't get headaches because everything would be beige. I wouldn't feel anything if I lacked the level of emotion that lives inside of me.

That being said, I tend to take things personally at work when things don't go my way. I remember my First Grade report card.... "Mandy doesn't take well to criticism..." I would pout and suck my thumb...

These days, I don't get criticized, but my work does and I take it personally. I was a big mouth today and didn't accept that I was not given the opportunity to explain .... It worked in my favor. I am not 6 any more, but life-lessons have a way of following me around. It is personal, non-beige, feeling and hurting and it all happened today